Dear Sunshine,

It's lovely for you to be brightening up the days lately. It's so hot here though, I even wore a dress around the house once-the first time in years. I think you've made me slightly more chilled out although I can't be sure. x

Dear Scales.

Scales we did it! How I love you when you tell me what I want to hear :)

Dear ACarel,

I feel really bad about not going into the last ever art class especially seeing as you gave me a certificate in the assembly afterwards, thank you by the way. I saw the pictures on facebook that charlie put up of the class and I feel sad I wasnt in them. Charlie's new hair cut looks good so I missed something else too.
Feeling shitty now.

Dear Lu,

Really enjoyed this afternoon with you. Hope you enjoyed spending some time together too x

Dear K.East,

I really like you Miss. I think you have a really nice fun yet understanding personality which is especially important in a job like you do.
Today when you saw me crying (when Jess gave me a hug) I appreciated that you asked everyone to leave the room. I could have collapsed in tears, I really could have done but managed to hold back once again.

Maybe tomorrow you will ask me what was wrong and I will tell you that everything is too much or maybe I will insist I am fine, maybe the crying will never be mentioned. One thing is for sure though, some of my foundations are cracking and my emotions are beginning to seep through.

Dear Courtney,

I really don't appreciate you telling me I have a red nose and asking me why, it was plainly obvious I had just been crying. Please be a little sensitive...?

Dear Psychology Class,

I was terrified about the party today, when people suggested bringing in food and drink I nearly fainted on the spot and wanted the ground to swallow me up.
On advice from other situations to reduce any possible stress I decided I would make some cakes to bring in- that way the anxiety may be reduced slightly- I would know whats in them and people wouldn't talk if I rejected other food because I could say I was full on the cake.
They actually turned out well and I took ages working out which ones to take and took my time spreading the mixture between cake cases so they were all even- I even decided to use a few fairy cupcake cases- I wanted Miss to have one especially so when she picked that one out straight away it made me happy.
Mrs S mentioned to me after that she was really proud of me going and I was so happy that she said that because it was a big deal and it was nice  that my efforts were acknowledged! Mrs S also told me that you Steff had said you wanted me to be there- that was really special. It made me feel as if I might belong.
Thank you.. xx

Dear PSYA4 Class,

Psychology leaving party... really???

Dear Angie,

I'm upset you gave me a few 'dirty' looks on Friday- I don't know what people have told you about me but I haven't done anything wrong. Your daughter is lovely and just because I'm not going out with her brother anymore doesn't mean I can't see her or talk to her. I get on really well with Jess and she's one of my best friends- yes she is 13 but age doesn't matter- we get on really well.
When she fainted, I caught her- maybe you should be grateful?? I'm worried about her and maybe you should show some concern too (after all she is your daughter) rather than showing concern about me being in the same room as her...

Dear Arriva Buses,

Please don't change around the bus timetables I'm too scared to use the bus now. Keep things the same and everyone wins.

Dear Lynsey,

When I left the group you asked me if I would be volunteering at Oxfam for much longer- you were glad when I said for a long time because you said you would like to come in and visit me. I went in as much as I could religiously every Saturday in the hope that I would get to see you again.
I had to quit because it all got to stressful and was too much pressure on me; I would have quit much sooner if I hadn't been holding onto the fact that you might want to see how I am.

I'm upset that you never came.

Dear Emma,

I printed off a handout from your website about hidden meanings behind eating disorders and filled it in. It really touched some nerves and was related so much to how I am feeling it was as if it was tailor made. I took it to my counselling session today and was able to show how I felt which was really handy.
You are a star and always so supportive of me, I really hope you continue with your good work.