People with an eating disorder usually strive to achieve and be the best of the best YET it is extremely difficult to motivate study when you're so low and drained- why do you have to then give us such difficult questions that rely solely on memory recall of names & dates and facts & figures?
It's not fair or just.
Tuesday, 31 January 2012
Wednesday, 25 January 2012
Dear Argos,
You have saved my life- I got enough strength up to walk to your store today- I bought some of your bathroom scales, a £6.99 well spent.
I went behind the back of everyone, nobody knows but me and it feels kinda good this way, something I can do myself again.
I like the padded feet bit you can stand on and how there is a magnifying glass part on the scale so I can read it accurately when standing up still. You made a good move putting these ones up for sale.
I used to be addicted to the scales but after my parents got suspicious they suddenly were 'broken.' After refusing to be weighed at the local hospital I didn't know the number, judging only by how big or small I thought I was for that day. When I needed to be transferred to another service I had to be weighed and managed to do it which was a big achievement and after recently finding the 'broken' scales under my Mum's bed a few days later, I have been keeping tabs on it all as much as possible.
So... Thank You Argos! I now have my own set and can keep better track of everything.
I'm so glad I had the energy to walk all that way -it paid off!!
I went behind the back of everyone, nobody knows but me and it feels kinda good this way, something I can do myself again.
I like the padded feet bit you can stand on and how there is a magnifying glass part on the scale so I can read it accurately when standing up still. You made a good move putting these ones up for sale.
I used to be addicted to the scales but after my parents got suspicious they suddenly were 'broken.' After refusing to be weighed at the local hospital I didn't know the number, judging only by how big or small I thought I was for that day. When I needed to be transferred to another service I had to be weighed and managed to do it which was a big achievement and after recently finding the 'broken' scales under my Mum's bed a few days later, I have been keeping tabs on it all as much as possible.
So... Thank You Argos! I now have my own set and can keep better track of everything.
I'm so glad I had the energy to walk all that way -it paid off!!
Tuesday, 24 January 2012
Dear Mum,
I took an initiative; I actually proactively suggested something to have for dinner. I say 'Shall I make it?' and how do you repay my bravery? You berate me. You make me feel small, empty and embarrassed. You make me angry, anorexia angry.
You say that I make my portions smaller when I cook my own meal (fair enough- I give you that) but when you tell me that it won't be nutritious and healthy enough (basically you're claiming not enough calories) you make me fume because you have given me that meal ten times over yourself and have never questioned anything.
Different rules for different people- Different rules for me.
You say that I make my portions smaller when I cook my own meal (fair enough- I give you that) but when you tell me that it won't be nutritious and healthy enough (basically you're claiming not enough calories) you make me fume because you have given me that meal ten times over yourself and have never questioned anything.
Different rules for different people- Different rules for me.
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