Dear M and D,

The walk we went on after dinner was really nice, I enjoyed linking up arms and strolling by the river. We should do it more often x

Dear GW,

Please look after yourself. I'm worried about you. I don't think you realise how much you want and need to avoid hospital admission.Look after yourself and please please take care xx

Dear Student Finance,

How much can you confuse a person????



(Hint: LOTS!)

Dear Mrs Long,

Please look after me tomorrow on this school trip. I don't have any friends that will be there (not to mention many at all anyway) and I know I will be on my own which is very daunting and scary. I'm not good with people especially in new places and I'm terrified about going into another school for a huge conference day. I mean what will happen at lunch time...???
It's freaking me out quite a lot. Just stick by me, yeah?

Dear Angela,

Thanks for letting me have the week to cool down and for my last exam to be Monday. SO STRESSED right now so its great to have a bit more time in between all the rest of the stuff going on.

Dear Sketchbook.

You seem to be shaping up nicely now, full of drawings and doodles. I'm glad we are finally getting a long better- get me a good grade :)

Dear J,

I hope from my email you understand how hard things have gotten even though I haven't directly said it. Please understand.

Dear BBC- The Voice

I think that its such a good idea to do a singing show based on somebody's voice rather than appearance and looks. Now that the auditions and blind rounds are over I hope that you aren't going to ruin the show and make it all about the appearance; I don't know how you're going to do it but I hope you try and don't fall into the trap many other shows do.

Dear Melly,

You really made me smile over Easter even though it was a hard time. I miss you x

Dear Peggy,

I keep thinking about you and wonder what you're up to. I don't want to email you again because last time you said you would have liked to hear about other things than I had written about, it made me really embarrassed.

I was thinking this time last year I'd just started with Louise properly after you had left in the winter. So much has changed since then and I keep wishing I had told you some of the things that happened- like a person that you thought was nice but really wasn't, if I had known what I know now then I would have told you but I was sucked in by the lies too so it was really difficult to see past what was happening.

Part of me would like to meet up with you again but I would be too nervous about what you would think of me now, I know my body has changed and I would be worried that you would comment on it.

I can still imagine you and see you in my head- did you know I became scared of you when you wore a suit? and when you had had a haircut? I always felt more nervous seeing you then and it was weird but each time you wore a suit/had a hair cut our appointments went badly.

I think towards the end of your time at CAMHS you had become a different person and wouldn't let me talk much anyway so maybe it was better that you left the service and that I couldn't see you anymore and that I can remember you more as you were in the early days than towards the end.
Its such a strange idea that I saw you for 1 or 2 times a week for over three years and I'm never supposed to contact you again. It's horrible getting close to someone and almost building a relationship/attachment with them for it to be broken so sudden and harshly.

Anyway, I hope you are well and that you are OK. Miss you Pegster!

Dear Windows,

You are such fun to clean! Mum has someone coming to stay so we've been tackling the house bit by bit and this morning was the windows. I really enjoyed rubbing the miracle potion on you and then getting a cloth and wiping it off to reveal the perfect streak free glass, it was rewarding and satisfying but eventually you wore me out! I managed to wipe about 12 windows twice and they look great- nice result visually and nice result physically.